About 16 months ago I started to have a pain on the left side of my body under my arm close to my armpit and my ribs. At the beginning I thought it was stress or maybe that I was sleeping on the left side of my body too often.
The pain got worse and had to massage that area constantly, but it wasn’t helping. I was shopping online for Christmas gifts at my favorite organic store, and came across an organic “Brassage.” A bra that helps gets rid of toxins and aids lymphatic flow. So I bought one hoping it would help, but my pain did not go away.
We visited my friend Dave in Mt Shasta, who happens to be a massage therapist and has a spa in Mount Shasta, for our winter vacation. He asked me how I was doing and somehow I didn’t want to mention the pain because I didn’t want to worry him. So I finally spilled the beans and mentioned about my pain. He said that pain in the area of the body is related to giving too much to others and not taking care of me. I’ve heard this before in Oprah’s show when they bring in mothers who don’t have time for themselves. I was confused! “I take care of myself!” I thought. “I eat raw foods, quit my corporate job, enjoy life, what more than that can I give myself?”
After a nice massage by my dear friend in Mt. Shasta, I realized that I was in denial. I do give first to others and then whatever is left over I share with more people and never me. The pain went away for a few weeks but came back. So I gave up. I was taking care of me but was still in pain.
Another friend at home told me that it was the gallbladder. She also does massage therapy. At that point I thought, “How can I be the gallbladder?! I’m a raw Foodist! We don’t get sick!” The same weekend another friend told me that we hold anger in our gallbladder, and then she said “but you don’t look like an angry person.” To which Denis said “you just don’t know her.” We all laughed, but that got me thinking about being angry.
And that’s how I decided to do a gallbladder flush. I started that same day and did tons of research on ways to flush the gallbladder. So I had my plan! I did liquids only for four days, which means all the food I ate was liquid. On the fifth day I drank apple juice all day… and at night came the Olive Oil Cocktail & Grapefruit Martini!
As the week went by, I thought about what makes me angry. The list was longer than I expected! Many times I hold it in because I rather not cause an argument or conflict. I also found out that I get mad at myself quite often.
Everyone that heard that I was doing the flush was excited to hear my experience. I was hoping to just be able to drink the olive oil with no issues and was praying that the stones would not get stuck anywhere. So the night came and had my olive oil cocktail, I followed the rest of the instructions for the night, and went to bed. I woke up the next morning and nothing happened… I was a little pale, but no stones.
The pain went away, but came back the next time I had stress at work and was angry. Go figure! After all it seems that I’m an angry healthy person, but at least I know I am! 🙂